days 21, 22, 23 los peeps.

i have a funny relationship with The People.

i am both enamored with and terrified by most people.

not individually, really, because when i can connect with folks on a one-on-one basis, i can feel the sameness.

but groups, or strangers, tend to instantly transform me into a semi-panic stricken bumbling fah-REEK.

so mostly i just don't leave my house.

but i do love The People.

day 21 i dedicate to The Guides- the community members i look to when i need guidance or mentorship. folks who do business consciously and mindfully. folks who parent with trust and unconditional love. folks whose example i look to in this cobbled together village of mine.

day 22 i dedicate to, as anne-marie has so eloquently labeled them, the arg-bargers. the people who i struggle to thank the most. the peeps who i sometimes try too hard to understand when i should be just giving them more space. folks whose juxtaposition to myself serves to keep me eternally humble and awake to my own C to the R to the A to the Pee.

day 23 is today and is for my sweet soul sisters (and brothers). you all know who you are. some of you i see regularly, some i haven't seen in years. if you are out there and i haven't told you lately that i love you, i do. i'm not much of a hugger, and detest the phone, so sometimes i'm afraid that i might give off a scent that reeks of not really caring. i'd like to take this opportunity to state, for the record, that i actually care so much it freaks me out to the point of not wanting to leave my house for fear of doing or saying something that would make any one of you like me less. i care so much that i sometimes lie awake at night thinking about things going on in your lives that i know is causing you pain. i'm not saying that it's healthy. in fact, i know that being neurotic and angsty about relationships with Other Humans is a giant blinking neon sign that i'm a long-ass way from enlightenment. and yet, it's all true. and to those of you i love, i hope you know that this love-well runs deep. i hope i have, in someway, somehow, given you some insight into how awesome i think you are. you're awesome. and i've way mega totally got your back, dudes.

and also, sorry about that time i was so super weird. that just happens.